I really do appreciate everything you do for me. BUT I can't handle you getting jealous of my guy FRIENDS, getting mad at me for hanging out with someone other then you, and def. not expecting me to do things you know I can't do. I can't make myself love you. We've been broken up for almost a year and a half and still you make me feel bad everyday for breaking up with you . It happened. I was there. I don't know why. And I've told you that time & time again I dont have an answer, yet you always come to me for an answer. I always tell you I dont want to repeat myself, I dont want to explain the same things to you. But I find myself always repeating myself. and then always getting mad at you for making me.
one time I did love you. or at least I thought I did. I'm not really sure what it was. Maybe a rebound? Whatever it was...I was happy..after acouple months it faded. And I def. hid it from you. Which was prob. wrong, But I can't really take that back now. So we were together 9 months. made plans. got excited. I made you PROMISE to LOVE me FOREVER. Honestly I think I did it because When I was with Joe I thought he would love me forever...and when he didn't I was crushed. I made you promise...bc I never made him promise. bc I thought that if I would have made him promise then he would have loved me forever. But that's not how love works. promising someone you'll love them doesnt mean anything. It can if you really will be together forever...BUT if you aren't then they're merely words.
I'm sorry I made you promise. I'm sorry Im a bitch to you when I get mad at you. I know you don't intentially try to annoy me. I just don't feel like you ever even try to see where I'm coming from. and that's what annoys me.
Originally I wanted a break...just a break..I told you we would get back together I needed my space. and I did. I was telling the truth. I couldnt stand you telling me what to do. not that you did it possesively. and I hated feeling like you had someone watching every move I did. esp. when I started hanging out with ur sister and you would tell her to keep an eye on me when we'd go to parties. You never were very good at giving me my space. so I had to push.
I dont deserve anything you do for me. you treat me amazingly well. But I don't use u. so those things to me are thoughtful, and I appreciate them. But i dont expect them. you just do them. I hate when you act like I make you do things for me....
this is the way things happened. I have no control over the way I feel.You and me are never going to be together again like we use to be. I'm sorry..I'm sorry I broke your heart. but dont ever act like you're the only person who's ever loved someone. bc you arent. I have. you're not the only person I've been with. Sorry that person I was inlove with wasn't you. | 
NoW nOw NoW!!!